The reason

love is the reason

our hearts met

and danced

love is the reason

our souls soared

and laughed

the reason why

I find pure joy

when looking in

your eyes

is love

apathy

apathetic

i no longer care

my heart so hard

it's hardly there

but scorns

and deny's

it's own existence

nothing really matters

when reality is so cold

my mind is numb

and frozen

when everything it knows

is picked apart

and ridiculed

impassively run

into the ground

Yours

Just to be near you

sends my heart soaring

you send my soul swirling

twirling back

into your arms

when you hold me

the world stands still

and everything I am

is yours

apology

she slipped her hand
into his
I’m sorry for
the way I’ve been
I really want to
find the place
where our hearts meet
how can we ever give up
when the journey
will mean so much
molding us into who
we were meant to be
I trust the plan
of one who sees
more than I

ever could

Dream

I wanted to dream
Of you
But I can’t even remember
What it feels like
To see your eyes
And I can’t remember
How it feels
To be in your arms
And I can’t remember
How you taste
Or how you kiss
I can’t remember
Your hand in mine
So I close my eyes
And sleep
Hoping that I’ll dream

My heart and yours

To you I offer out my hand
Hoping that you’ll
Touch me back
But mid air it stays
Without
Any inclination that
You see my offering

So patiently I wait for you
To see how much
I need to hear
The words that tell
How much you care
And ring like music
To my ears

So longingly
I hope that you
Will spare a moments thought
For me
That in the busy
Rush of day
It is my eyes you wish to see
The greatest gift
I could receive
Is a second spent
Of you with me

I’m not really sure how you
Express the fibers
Of your love
I watch for it
And treasure
Any form that it may come
But sometimes
When needed most
My out-stretched hand
Stands alone
And sadness fills
The space

Between my heart
And yours

War

The token in her hands betrayed
The vision in her mind
This is the symbol of my goal
The reason I inspire

Bewilderment or’took the people
All prepared to fight
The fury raging in their hearts
The hatred in their eyes

But is what you claim as freedom
Really worth the price
Of taking from another
His creed, his land, his life?

She cast her eyes about the crowd
Struggling for the words to say
Her plea was not just for peace
But hope for all mankind

The truth is that true freedom lies
Not in the struggle, or the fight
But in the hearts of those who love
And give their will to the Divine

Watching in sorrow she saw
The chaos that they claimed would save
dejected man
A silent tear slipped from her eye
An olive-leaf fell from her hand

Opposition

a dark wind blew

vapor swept across the earth

so thick

it could be felt

I peered into the

blackened sky

then closed my eyes

and shook

the world breaking

into pieces

unmoved by the

single tear

drifting down

into the gloom

of night

drifting from

the sorrow of

my eye

a cold wind blew

pressing hard against my heart

as I fight

to stand upright

it moves like music

and my struggle

turns into a dance

as I push against

this wall that

cannot fall

but seeks

to bring me down

I am surrounded

trapped

by the sound

of rushing wind

losing you

even after so much

time

the vivid memory

returns

so clearly I see

you and I

w so much love

that now just

hurts

from somewhere

deep

the pain appears

at the thought of you

w her

but now I know

what letting go

really means

el deseo de mi corazón

like looking in a mirror

that reflects the soul

I see only you

as I strive

becoming whole

purple blue that

swirls around me

I dive into the

currents of light

that carry me to

you

beyond horizons

I would push past any

limits just

to stand

staring into

you

If you were to

reach for me

I'd run into your

arms

I'd lay my head

upon your chest

and listen to

your heart

wanting to

connect

on levels

deeper than

the realm

of human

thought

like looking

into a sea

that reflects

your eyes

if only I could

dive

into the depths

of you

Stars

I peered into the sky

and saw a billion stars

a billion pieces

of my heart

shining

those same stars

see you

and send to you

my heart

mon ami

our two worlds collide

to create a new

full of possibilities

imagined only in

our beautiful reality

like two distant polar points

destined to discover

how complete it really feels

to revolve around

the other

my yellow blends

so perfectly

with your ocean blue

together we become a green

neither one of us could ever be

if we remained alone

and so I yearn to mix with you

to become the color both

symbolizing love

and growth

if you could look

beyond these eyes

and see the soul that is inside

you would find it

intertwined

so tenderly with you

My Child

he crawled into

her open arms

and laid his head

upon her heart

enfolding him with

her love

she kissed his cheek

and softly hummed

a tender lullaby

he clung to her

until slowly

the trembling

began to cease

and rocking him

so lovingly

he drifted off

to peaceful sleep

chaos

she cries
in dusky red
removed from
the hopelessness
torturing
her soul
lost in the
tenderness
longing to be
whole
she cries
and the echo of
her tears
mark the walls
this chaotic
predicament
like pieces
made of glass
that form one
total mess
incoherent

removed
she backs away
and deserts those pieces

of herself

Griff

7/16/09

such a sweet
honest person
so bruised and
so broken
from trying to
sympathize
with the harsh
and rude
arrogance
of a
close-minded
man

she smiles
almost laughs
now that the
confrontation
has past
seeing just how
comical
such entanglements
can be
when looked at
with irony

Slow Dance

7/12/09

a soft smile in
your eyes
as your fingers
reach for mine
your arm around my
waist
and I am in your arms
the saxophone melts out
some blues
the tune so hot
it lights the moon
I follow as I feel
you move
our hearts dancing
in unison

Aqua Blue

the world around me

swirls

moving gently against my skin

a sweet sensation on

my lips

I dip my hands into this fountain

of water pure, w life or'flowing

it fills my soul

from head to toe

rejuvenating as I taste

its refreshing

vibrance

the sound of water

rushes over me

I look

and see my reflection

of everything I hide

the depths

reveal the thoughts

inside and I cannot

break the gaze

of this woman

bearing my name

demanding I confront

the reason for her

existence

the emerald pools

of her eyes

pierce my heart

and question

the purity of its

intentions

in answering the

blue changes to red

the swirling colors

now rip thier way

into my skin

my passionate blood

fighting against

the limits of

consciousness

her fiery eyes

boldly pushes away

the last solid pieces

remaining

forcing me to

fall through space

ageless, timeless

empty

when all at once

I suddenly

feel the rush of water engulfing me

completely immersed in

the depths of this fountain

forever extending in every direction

encompassed in my womb

comforted in darkened blue

which way is up?

I cannot tell

letting go

my lungs contract

filled w my first

aquatic breath

I swim into the

endless peace that

penetrates

this liquid

I breathe

my dear friend

hope is always

visible, in the flashes

of light that make up

my thoughts

every time

I think of you

I can't explain

the sensation of

adoration expounded

a million times a million

when w my mind's eye

I see you

My heart embraced

placed in your reach

my past seems so

much more far away

when I envision a future

w someone similar

to you

You tell me love is

only in my head

but I don't believe you

for I can touch it

in the pages of

writers and poets past

and I can see it

in the faces

weathered, old and gray

but smiling

it is the air I breathe

and the song that

keeps me singing

you say that realistically

no one could give

their everything

to those who don't

deserve it

but I think you're wrong

Beauty

It’s moments such as this
that cause me to forget
the world is not made up
of peace

how can there be war
while a bird sings his song
and the sun shines
like gold on fields of green?

In breathing this air
how can I be anything
but free?

Desire

the wind blows on my face
in a soft and cool embrace
gently lifting my hair
moving, dancing all around
in fresh invigorating
bursts

he smiles in peaceful sleep
immersed within his dreams
her gentle kiss upon his lips
ignites in him the deepest need
to love his lady of the
breeze

Like Silence

Like silence deep inside of me
That quivers when I dare to speak
Love unchecked unbalanced
In the passionate existence
Of a touch

Like fire deep inside of me
A burning fueled as I breathe
It consumes my soul
In the ultimate expression
Of my heart

A thousand questions smoldering
In ashes of a mind that’s free
To paint the timbre
Of emotion
Bursting at the seams

She asks loves dying memory
For answers lost inside the pain
That cannot quench a thirsting soul
Searching through the last remains
Of soullessness in tortured bliss

Unanswered unapproached, the question
Lingers in the stagnant air
Awaiting a response from the
Many who have asked before
Wondering if they somehow knew
Her solitary quest

Like longing deep inside of me
To reach out and touch the face
Of fortitude carried by strength
Venturing into the darkness
I call out your name
But only empty echoing remains

So Far Away

6/4/09

In the softly falling rain
I hear you whisper to me
Where you are can be so far away
When will you hear me?

Hold on - just remember
All the times that you cared for me
Hope can last forever
When your eyes are all I can see

Where you are can be so far away
When will you hear me?

In the softly falling rain
I hear you whisper to me
I am here my love come follow me
To the place of memory

mystery of the heart

5/28/09

sometimes I wonder if you can feel

me the way I feel you

a sort of strange connection

experienced from the start

I wonder if it's only in my mind

or on my part

there is so much misconception

that comes with being human

we learn to love

through small degrees

how tenderly the heart

can be - withdrawing almost instantly

afraid of being hurt

but not withstanding

it keeps on loving

anyway

Walking down the corridor

Walking down the corridor

She turned to see his eyes

Are you sure you really want to follow me?

she said with half a smile

He grabbed her hand and pulled her close

Took her in his arms and touched her hair

I'm never sure of anything he said

But you I'd follow anywhere

Distant

She looked inside the window
Searching for a face
One she couldn't recognize
One she couldn't place

I think I see him standing there
Beside the fire-blaze
Quietly leaning over the hearth
Wondering at the flames

Outside the rain began to fall
Quietly, coldly to penetrate
She stood there searching, silent and wet
But never saw his face

Beautiful Life

5/16/09

A beautiful life
An enduring heart
A hope untainted by
Fear
The joys of tomorrow
Spring form seeds of today
Where love holds
The highest
Of sway

Garden

5/10/09

will you plant a garden?
to surround yourself w growth
longing for the springing-forth
of seedlings into sprouts

the world around her blossomed w life
but her heart was void and cold
looking within she answered herself,
no, nothing here will grow

I'm home

5/10/09

My soul longs

To touch you

To feel the warmth

Radiating

From inside

Reaching out

To hold me

Gently your

Hand touches

Mine

And for the first time

I'm home

Embodied in my dreams

You

Are my reality

My heart you capture

With a smile

Reaching down into the depths

Of my soul

From the dark

You find a star

Reminding me of

Who I am

Singing your song of light

You help me shine

I live forever in the sun

When with your love

You sing to me

Until everything I dream

Awakens from the

Dust

The breath of

Everlasting

Life

Passing By

5/6/09

see the sunshine
through my window
see the springtime
drawing nigh

shadows fleeing
searching for darkness
hiding
from the light

open wide the
window to springtime
catch the sunshine
passing by

send the shadows
fleeing to darkness
hide them
from the light

Order of the Soul

The soul searches for order
The heart longs to be free
There are principles
That govern the universe
Conform to these
My friends
You must conform to these

The ancient poet
Solon
Tried to heal chaotic Greece
Calling men to virtue
To rise above selfish
Mediocrity

The people didn’t listen
They couldn’t understand
So the Greek house fell
Like stacks of cards
And Solon left the land

The commonwealth
Reflects the order
Of the souls of men
It will be as just, as true as great
As men’s character within

When men no longer
Believe in good
What standard do they have?
What constrains the
Lusts and passions
If there is no bad?

When order of the soul decays
One cannot be free
To protect man from
His brother
Leviathan rules in tyranny

Why should man
Order his soul?
Why obey the “higher law”?

The life of Solon echos back
His words ring forth as true
An ordered liberty is secure
If Virtue reigns inside of you.

Love

Out of all the virtues
Men can possess
Love is the greatest
Of all

It bringeth hope
Is gentle and kind
In trial it
Suffereth long
It worketh no ill
To his neighbor
For love
Fulfilleth the law

Yes, out of all the virtues
That men can possess
Love
Is the greatest
Of all

My Savior

My soul in quiet soberness

Reflects on hands

That reach to save

On eyes of endless love

On arms of sweet embrace

Standing at the door

He knocks

Will I let him in?

The one who's offered

Everything

So that I might begin

To understand

What it means

To truly live.

Someday

he said

you'll finally admit

that you're

madly

in love w/ me

Someday

i said

you'll finally admit

that i'm not

Massage

She took a deep breath

And let the world in

Slowly letting go

Placed her hands on him

Efflurage with love

She sunk down past his skin

Giving with her heart

And healing in her touch

His aura opened up

Tentively letting her in

As her rhythm matched his rhythm

And they danced in unison

Remembering....

where is the comfort of my soul?
consumed inside the chaos
what can make me whole?

motivated by desire
that can only grow
keeping satisfaction
lurking in the shadows

gentle as the rain
you lean down
to kiss my cheek
i turn my head
so you won’t see
the tears
filling up my eyes
spilling out to
streak across
my face
when will you learn
you can not
love
away my hate?

Word of Wisdom

Hidden treasures of knowledge
By revelation I receive
When my heart is open
And my body clean

To run and not be weary
To walk and not faint
Blessings sent from Heaven
To those who would obey

The law was given to forewarn
Of evils and conspiring men
Adapted for the truly humble
That this promise they’d obtain:

When death lay all around them
Caused by sicknesses and plagues
The destroying angel would pass by them
Giving them life while others’ fade

The Tree

The world cries
Their hope
Is dying
Looking inside
Nothing
They find

Here I stand
Caught in a land
That’s burning
To the ground
Only in remembrance
Can a light
Be found

They found a seed
And planting it
Believed
That it would bring us
The most delicious
Fruit we had known
How beautiful it
Would grow

And now their dream
In our hands
We carelessly
Dash to pieces
Unconcernedly killing
The tree
Our Fathers planted

Let us restore anew
The tree
Our Fathers planted

captivated

captivated
by the light
brought to tears
in it’s embrace
love’s unfailing
acquisition
culminates
in grace.

Colin

just as night had ended
and the morning filled my mind
contentedly I sang and danced
alone there in the sunshine

from a distant shadow
he watched me as I played
enchanted by the music
enraptured as I sang

carried on the wind
a voice, gentle and deep
resonated to my ears
in strange familiarity

have I heard you speak before?
I asked wondering
you seem so near, though you are far
a distant sort of longing

from where you stood I could not see
your face, or touch your hand
oh won’t you come out
and dance the day away with me, my friend?

She walked across the water
Then flew into the sky
I’m looking for my dreams
One has passed me by

It’s here beside the water
It fell upon the shore
It’s heart it’d given to the waves
Then melted into wisps of gold

‘I love you’ sang the ocean
And in reply he said,
‘I once was a dream from Heaven,
But for you became the sand.’

Hope Realized

Crying in the moonlight
Guided by the starlight
Searching through the darkness
For a glimmer to
Appear

Waiting in the silence
Watching as the shadows
Dance and play while her
Hope presupposes
Every fear

Welcoming the dawn-light
Knowing that the sunshine
Soon will peak its eye
Atop of the
Horizon

Smiling as the first rays
Cast upon her brilliant face
Looking toward the sun
Every distant dream
Is realized

Immortal

tenderly
his hand
reaches up
to wipe the tears
falling from
my eyes
I am not afraid
to cry
when I’m looking into you

lovingly my soul
he holds
like a flower
dipped in gold
I am made more
beautiful
when I’m viewed
from inside you

I never dreamed that
I would be
the object of a
hero’s love
immortalized
from the
passion
burning in
his heart

letting go

The distance only grows
The silence between us
Magnifies
The pain inside
You must let go
All the dreams
You dreamt with me
Are no more
The longer you wait
The greater your waiting
Will be in vain
Don’t cry for me
What can I do?
I cannot change
The choice you made
Just when I think
That I’ve moved on
Your voice returns
Your image blurs
Through my tears

Truth

cast away the
ugliness
that surrounds you
when you doubt
mountains of error
must always be found
when in pursuit
of truth

faith hopes in things
not seen
but true
what path will reason
lead us to
when no more
we hope?

Morning Light

Morning light
Tear of sunshine
Opening my soul

Refrain of memory
Sung so sweetly
In union with my heart

Remorse of conscience
Washed in innocence
Purifies my life

Hope sustaining
Destiny remembering
Becoming all I can

Codey Ray

You came into a world
Of darkness
Looking for it’s light
If you could only see
My child
Instead you brought it
With you, shining
In your eyes

You came into a world
Of coldness
Asking to be loved
But in return it turned on you
Abandoned you
To cry alone

So many times

Have I tried to keep you safe,
To take away your pain
But now they’ve torn you
From my life
How can I protect
My little child
Looking in from the outside
With no way to reach you

I beat upon the door and
Cry and beg
To bring you home…
The only place
Where you feel safe
Is here in loving arms

Here you can laugh
And dance and play
You love to smile, take walks outside
And pray
Here you’re nurtured,
Held and always listened to
All my life would I give
If I could only raise you

My little Codey Ray
My angel full of love
How my whole heart cries
And breaks
Yet powerless am I to change
Your beginning life

A million times I ask God why
Why he didn’t make you
Mine
I am the one who loves you

Never say you cannot dream
The world is yours to grasp
So go
And dream away

Never think it’s too hard
It is that thought
That holds you back
So go and doubt
No more

Never fear to give your heart
In giving it away
The world comes back to you
More beautiful than before
So go and give
Your heart away

Never think you’re not enough
You are worth more than gold
All the treasures of the earth

Are dim next to your soul

Journey

She lifted up her hand
And touched a sky painted
Black
The emptiness and heaviness
Consumed her
So she closed her eyes
And sank
Into the earth

~

Right here is where
I need to be, she cried
And her tears became the sea
She laughed and the sound
Became the breeze
She danced and the earth
Trembled with each step
Then, soft and cool as the gentle rain
She wept

~

Opening her eyes once more
She ventured out into the air
Finding she could really fly
She laughed and danced
And wept and cried
And soared.

~

The sky had turned from
Black to white
Her journey: from the earth to light-
But she became them both

Looking Back

I hope you know
I know
It wasn’t all
Your fault

For months you were
The one I blamed
I’m sorry for
The time
I wasted
Being sad, being hurt

Only now do I truly
See all my mistakes
How often I was in the wrong…

You were never perfect either
But now I see
How I was the reason
You did things
I held resentment for

I acted out of childishness
And you couldn’t help being
Confused, and really hurt.

The girl of your dreams
Didn’t know what she
Was doing.

When I didn’t want to
Face my faults
I put them all on you
I made myself a
Victim
Who only felt
Abused

I’m sorry because
Even though you had little
Self-control
I fell into the pattern I grew up with
I made things worse for
Both of us
You were used as the excuse

I’m not saying it’s all my fault
It’s just I finally see
Where I went wrong

It’s ironic that now I know
I never had to feel
Like I wasn’t in control
If I had been who I am now
It never would have gone so far…
I don’t think I would have wanted you

But maybe…
I needed this
To learn…
To grow

It may not make a difference now,
It certainly won’t change the past
But I just wanted you to know
I’m sorry I was
That girl back then
Because today,
You’d hardly recognize me

Morning Walk

The sun filters in
To the corners of my heart
I am washed new
In its loving light

Every breath that I take in
Brings to me new life
It fills my soul bubbling or’
With wondrous delight

Vibrant as the breeze
I want to drink it in
To dance on every dew drop
And sing the earth’s sweet strain

Dickinson once wrote the poem,
“Inebriate of air I breathe…”
Only now do I know

Exactly what she means!

The People are Kings

When you give or protect life
You are a King or Queen
Living by the voice inside
That speaks the truth to your mind
Will lead to liberty.
When you love instead of hate
And give not to receive
When you would offer up your life
So that your neighbor could be free,
You create the kind of country
Our Nation yet could be
Where every home’s a kingdom
And every man is king.

The stakes are laid,
The sword is drawn
Who will stand for liberty?
You must choose the path you’ll take,
One of them is slavery
The power you have is to govern yourself
Governments were made to bring peace
Not to destroy the life you could live
Or bring death, depression, disease.
If you want to make a future
Where your children can be free
You must make your home a kingdom
You must make yourself a king.

The world holds its breath
It trembles at what it sees…
A Nation oppressed
A people unwilling to break
The pattern of history…
And yet could we?

When you give or protect life
You become a King or Queen…
And in a true Republic
The people are Kings

America

The light is dark
and shadows play
Like children dancing
in the spring

The day is night
and angels weep
Who watch the world
drift far away

America
you have become
A stranger to
what made you free

Men once were led
to give their lives
Now you destroy
their hope filled dream

She cried a thousand tears
And knew there were still more
Her heart had broken a million times
She wondered if it ever would
Be whole

And then…
She just let go.

Romance doesn’t seem so far
When you can reach it
In your heart
No person
Could ever mend
The pieces of her soul
Only love
For herself,
And for her life

The light inside
Warmed
And her perfect heart
Just gives and gives and gives
Not asking to receive
Not asking to be full
But self-sustained
And overflowed

After feeling so lost and alone
She looks inside and finds
That here, all along
She has
The love she’s looking for