You smile and I can see right into your heart
With your eyes you light up my world
I love looking into you

When will you break this ground to make a rainbow out of shadows
Let me live and hold on to all the dreams
I dreamt with you

If you dare to soar there’s a sky above that’ll take you
As long as you know where you want to go
You’ll never fall

There’s a legend in each mind
That yearns to find a way
Into your limited paradigm

With one look you can see me for who I really am
Only to satisfy the craving to paint me
Reflected in a tear

The light of a star
Travels far
To reach a place
w/ in my heart
it rests inside my soul
and finds repose
giving warmth
so bright

I look up to see a
Sea of falling stars
Heaven’s cool whisper
Melts upon my skin
I laugh at the
Kiss so freely given
And rejoice
In Nature’s love
Of white

11/30/08

the casualties of war
a price one has to pay
absorbed in glass
the flesh exposed
bleeding out
she tries to say
that only love
will save her

she no longer remembers
she no longer feels
she is hopelessly
betrayed

Remorse

lost in the rain
memories of a smile
dancing in the darkness
under fallen stars

laughing in mysterious
places full of fear
wandering the ruins
alone inside of her

kissing in the chaos
of frozen hopes and dreams
screaming in her memory
is sorrow etched eternally

caught inside confusion
embraced inside the dark
trembling at her deep desire
for the man that she despised

lover in authority
demanding she be his
broken she’s entangled
trapped beneath his skin

self destructive shame
bound by chains of sin
follower of passion
uncontrolled, unforgiven

forever will he be
carved into her heart
bleeding out of turmoil
empty in regret

you draw a line
to show the point
where none can cross
no one can pass

you hold a gun
to show how true
the silence is fearful
the fear is in you

reaching out and holding on
never letting go
you grasp so tight to what you want
but smothering – it chokes

CHIASMUS

8/08

I feel both the pain of
Your heart breaking
And the love
That makes it whole

I see the darkness
That you’re hiding
And the light that’s
Shining forth

Soon the light
Will over take me
And the darkness
Be no more

Soon God’s love
Will ever heal me
And my broken heart
Will be made whole

The Obsessed

7/7/08

Objective
you speak
Obsessive
in thought
Afraid of
this feeling
I’m kept in the dark

Bound by
Aggression
Conformity rules
In infinite chaos
You kindness
is cruel

My heart quakes
and shudders
Turning inward,
Distraught
In quiet abusing
you say it’s my fault

How can I recoil
Protecting my heart
A spirit that’s breaking
Breaks further
Apart

In Anguish
I crumble
So empty, so lost
In pain I’m contracting
in agony caught

You storm through
my feelings
blazing hatred and blame
forsaking the tenderness
that heals all
pain

All I need is your softness
to quiet my doubt
harsh in aggression
my heart gets cut out

Still in the
silence
I meet with great odds
I stand to confront
the giant so small

A little boy crying
is all that you are
A little boy dying
for love reaching far

but your pain will not
vanquish
nor agony cease
until your death-grip
over me you release.

FURY

6/23/08

why am i angry?
Angry at the whole thing
He doesn’t trust a word I say
It doesn’t mean a thing

Why am i so lost inside
The chaos of my mind?
I rage and hurt-
I’m hurting deep and
Lashing out to strike

He doesn’t deserve my fury
As i cry from within
My silent anger putrefies
It hurts both me and him

I hate this-
Why my love is burning into rage?
The more I deny myself
The chaos only grows
Destroying every tenderness
Where did it all go?

4/27/08

I close my eyes
To see the light
Soon all I am
Melts into white

I love
when I can dream
inside of you

a purple flower
dipped in gold
held in the heart
of one I love

my soul finds repose
when it touches
you

Feb 28 08

A thousand miles
Of rain
Distance me
From you

A thousand tears
Of blood
Never cried
Kept inside

Your love is toxic
It poisons me
I cannot breathe
So all I do
Is scream
But no one hears
No one cares
How much I
Love you
My whole heart yearns
My whole soul tears
Into countless pieces
When separated
From you
My love

what have i become?
A slave to my desires
A lost, forsaken child
Who pulls her hair
And cries
What is it I have done?
Stained my hands in blood
Mourning in my veil of black

For virtue that is gone

1/22/07

when you cry
heaven hears
angels fly down
to wipe your tears
so go ahead
and cry…

1/12/08

you are so beautiful
I see your soul
Deep inside your hearts’
So pure
You love the world
That hates you
You cry for them
That kill
You fly on wings of angels
As you walk past
Darkened hills
When sorrow consumes
So many
You open your eyes
To sunshine
And laugh

I Miss You

1/4/08


You are my Everything
My love
My Amazing one
All that I hope to be
Is in your arms
I love you
I love the way
You light up my life
You are my star
You shine so bright
I am yours
Forever yours
My love

12/28/07

you see my tears
and I cry
you count how many
times I call
your name
but no one came
you stayed
and laughed
a thousand
dazzling stars
away
while I stood
and cried

You tell me
you once
dreampt
in gold and
danced in
indigo blue
and so I
yearn
to take your hand
and dream
inside of
you

Snowflakes

12/18/07

Drifting softly
Gently falling
Carried lightly
By the wind

A kiss from
Heaven, cool,
Inviting
Asking me
To dance

Why do i cry
A thousand tears?
A thousand drops
Of blood
Why do I hurt a thousand
Times more
Then i smile and heal
w love

How Beautiful Is The Rain

12/32/07


Pitter patter on my roof
And on my window pane
It gives a memory of long ago
When all I had was rain

Healing love pours from the sky
To water the earth below
Singing to lullaby the child
Born to save the world

Nov. 19 07

What do
You Dream?
Of Laughter,
Healing Hands…
Of Beautiful Oceans,
Rivers, Lakes
Orange-Warmed
In Sand

I
Only Dream of
Clear Blue Skies,
Of Mountains Soaked
In Sun
Of Looking in
Your eyes
And Melting
Two
Into
One

Autumn Leaf...

Oct. 19 07

I love the way
You see me
I want my life
Filled with truth and beauty

Like an autumn leaf
So cold
Change brings pain
But stems from growth

I miss the laughter
That you bring
But I can’t forsake
All I am…
Just to love you

Redemption

7 31 07

This dark abyss
Consumes me
There is no escape
From destiny

My tortured soul
Cries out in pain
I’m lost and empty
Unsaved

I stand here innocent
As one condemned
In solitary confinement
Are my tears imprisoned

Only the blood
Of God as a man
Can break the chains
That bind me

The Window

Jul 18, 07

You opened a window
Giving light to my heart
Casting the darkness
Away

The place where I sorrowed
Only borrowing hope
Has turned form tears and heartaches to
Grace

Every memory of home
Gives me hope for a world
Crying out – caught inside
Pain

It’s darkness that blinds men
And fear that destroys
Racked with anger they kill
Unashamed

My heart knows the anguish
Their amplified emptiness
Lost and searching they seek all in
Vain

My eyes find the window
As love endless streams in
And I think how the world needs it’s
Light

Locked Away

5/8/07

We lock the pieces of our heart into a box of gold.
A treasury kept safe from the reaches of the world.
We put inside our hopes and dreams, our passions, our desires.
We put them there to keep them safe, to hide them from the light.
No hand can touch, no eye behold the mysteries contained
Inside the box where everything in secret doth remain.
Guarded by the dark, safely tucked away by night
Our hopes, our dreams and yearnings all asleep and cannot wake.
But what if we take the key and open up the lock,
With air to breathe, sunshine to see, we let out our heart.
Now hurtful words can penetrate, disappointments can break,
Spite, abuse and failure all have their toll to take.
But now this heart is free to love, to give and to have joy.
It is not bound away to merely sit there and grow cold.
The morning sun can warm this heart, with energy it glows.
It’s passions, fears, desires, hopes, now show themselves so bold.
This heart has purpose and even though it can be bruised and break,
The joy, the hope, the peace and love should not be locked away.

May 29 07

He looked and stared into the world
A sea of glass empty and shallow
Drifting far off into the realms
Of space and time unmeasured

A cold thin sheet of ice
Veiled the entrance, blocking it’s way
Touch it and find frozen flesh
Breathe warm breath, find crystal air

A silver heart beats no blood
But metal through its veins
He sees the world drift out of reach
Sheds a tear, then looks away.

4 16 07

Mysterious is the path that leads
To never-ending ends
Each man begins his journey same
The One Road we must all take
But walking down this narrow way
We reach the end and find ourselves
All at a different place.



The illusionist will tell you that
Nothing is as it seems
This life is but a memory of
The dreaming of a dream
Everything you see is but
A mirror of reality
To step inside this looking-glass
Would be to cross the veil of death
But only then can you wake
From your present sleep.

Mar. 12, 07

Hold out your hand

And catch every dream

That falls

From the stars above

That shimmer with song

Telling you that

You can.

Open your heart

And let the world in

That cries

The ones who are lost

Who feel all alone

They all need someone

To love them.

Lift up your head

And see who you are, in

God's eyes

He opens his arms

And calling your name

Invites you to come

Unto him.

Worlds Away

Feb. 14, 07

Why do I feel

You are worlds away?

Your soul is so distant

From mine.

Why do I sense

You hardly understand

The feelings of my heart

The thoughts of my mind?

You stand on the distant shore

A gulch without a bridge

Keeping you away.

My intuition tells me

You think you stand

Beside me

Why then do I feel

You are worlds away?

1/22/07

You try to laugh
But all that comes
Is murmurs, tears, stifled sounds

You try to hide
Behind the mask
Where half-disfigured shadows dance

Pretence is made
When reality, unashamed
Throws your weakness in your face

He Came...

Dec. 24, 06

He came
Jesus, the messiah...
He came
To save the world
From sin

He came
The meek and lowly lamb
He is
The Lord our God
I AM

He came
To suffer, bleed and die
My pain
He felt for me
He cried

That I
Might have eternal life
He came
The Savior of the world came
For me.

Nov. 26 06

A heart clothed in blue

Beats a blood that's red

There is passion deep inside

But this veil keeps it dead

A dream immersed by water

Disfigures all the world I see

A pounding heart beats in my ears

There is no air to wake me

A thousand lives of pain and tears

Pressed cold against a gray stone wall

Bitterness seeps through flesh and bone

Not one is left who cares at all

Written Dec. 22, 05

Silhouettes of dismal trees
Pierce the misty winter sky
Damp bark and earth speak for themselves
We wonder why does heaven cry?

The rain weeps softly to the earth
With heartfelt tears and frozen breath
It tells the tale of one who’s died
It speaks of one afraid of death

Sleeping soundly underneath
Dampened earth now soaked with blood
This thrashing rain that kills my heart
Is nothing more than broken love