Feelings

my heart longs for

the love that only you can bring

my soul searches

lost in memory

hope is in the shadows

slanted light distorts

all the dreams of us

i can’t let go

of wishes made on shooting stars

losing control

they slip away, they fall

becoming new

i discover lessons learned

in pain

i discover peace regained

grace softens my hardness

removes my pride

opens my heart to infinite light

still I crave

your warm embrace

i long for you to see

how desperately i need

total and complete

unreserved 

intimacy

Hopeless

My soul lost in sorrow

The pain of regret

Ripping at my heart

Breaking

Alone in the darkness

My tears

Shatter the silence

But offer no comfort

No release

I am in bondage

Placed in captivity

By a choice

Devoid of consequence

Packaged in passion

Full of lies

What I thought was love

Only self destructs

Destroying every hope and dream

Destroying my perception of

Identity

Leaving me cold

And worthless

I am locked inside the

Prison of my pride

The poison of my passion

The emptiness of delusion

As skies of blackened ash

In heaviness

Press down on me

Til I am crushed

I crumble,

I fall

I am broken

I cannot recover

Lost pieces of

Myself