I lose myself in all the moments I fear 

I'm not enough 

Or somehow 

.... Too much 

Too intense 

Emotional 

Dynamic 

Feeling 

Too many issues 

Too many needs 

Too many insecurities 

All surfacing 

All bare and exposed

Begging for some clothes 

Begging for a blanket 

Of love 

To wrap me up 

And hush the storm 

Raging 

Inside of me

Let me feel 

All the things 

I cannot express 

In words 

I cry 

I scream 

I die 

Inside 

Unstable 

This ground crumbles 

Until I fall 

Down down down 

Into the dark 

Scraping my arms and legs 

As I go

Down down down 

Deeper 

Into the darkness

I fall

I find myself in all the moments I trust 

That I'm enough

Never too much 

What I feel 

Belongs to me

Yes intense 

Emotional 

Dynamic 

But compassionate

I create the content 

Of my inner world 

I create the blanket 

Of love to wrap me up 

Protected from this storm 

That rages on and on 

I am in the eye 

I am in the calm 

I can hush the chaos 

Of my mind

9/29/17